Melting The Ice For Me

We are just digging out from an unbelievable ice storm. The ground, buildings and trees are all pebbled with ice that froze as it hit; the power was out for hours, and as someone who heats with electricity these days I can tell you that it was a bit of a bother. As if this was not bad enough, the sages who predict these things tell me that the temperature will continue to bounce around the freezing point with guaranteed precipitation to add to the fun. I will reiterate what I've said so many times before: I want to move ever so far away from snow.

Things between HB and I are... Well honestly I don't think there's an English word for the state of deep and abiding love overlaid with constant turmoil and uncertainty outside the phrase "soap opera." I am, however, willing to bet there's a single word that comes close in German. In any event we remain together and neither of us has followed through on the occasional strangulation fantasy so I suppose there's a silver lining in there somewhere.

I think in all honesty that the best thing for me to do is not to try to constantly tinker with our relationship as if it's a classic car I'm trying to make road worthy. I feel as though I ought to be doing that for myself instead. I've traveled a lot of rough terrain recently and suffered a few undignified dings and dents. I think that I will benefit far more from working on the things that are holding me back from the goals I want to reach, and if things work out for the better in my relationship in the meantime so much the better.

Sorry to make this such a short post, but today I am late for my daily mile walk and if I don't do it now I'll be doing it in the dark. The river is very pretty in its shackles of ice right now and all the trees look like they're made of glass. It doesn't make up for it being winter but at least it's something to look at, right?

As always, all of my best to all of you. I'll be posting again soon.

Title lyric from "Always" by Erasure.